One of the hardest things about this program is that it is a true immersion into the business world. This week, I have been a part of at least 5 different teams with my classmates. On the one hand, it is great to work with different people on tasks (as we would in a real world setting). On the other hand, it can be difficult to remember which team is doing what! Thank goodness for e-mails to help to keep things organized.
I also realize that my energy drops towards the end of the week. My persistent ability to stay positive starts to fluctuate as I approach the last class of the week. The conversation was interesting to listen to, but I felt like I didn’t have a lot to contribute. Initially, I was quite disappointed with my lack of familiarity with the subjects being discussed. “Are you gonna do something or just stand there and bleed” (Tombstone, 1993) reminded me that I am at OSU to learn. Even if I can’t participate in the immediate conversation, doesn’t mean that I can’t be better prepared for the next conversation. This incident also triggered a desire to rethink my current schedule and tweak it a little bit to accommodate for this increased tiredness at the end of the week. I am excited about the prospect of being better, even if I have to recover from a bloody nose.
The same evening that I had this “tough” class, I also spoke to my daughter on the phone during break. She said, “I want Daddy home.” It broke my heart. I know that I am doing all of this to make our lives better, but how do you explain the complexities of the arrangement to a three year old? I was so shocked by her statement, that all I managed to say was “I love you so much and I look forward to seeing you.”
The week ended with me thoroughly enjoying time with my family at the Columbus Zoo. Both my little girl and my boy were literally all over me. She didn’t want to walk and insisted that I carry her the whole time. My boy oscillated between wanting to be held by me and my wife. To end on a more humorous note, my three year old girl now weighs 28 lbs (pretty tiny) and my 11 month old boy weighs 30 lbs!